Come on 2013...

So I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas full of lots of food, family, and fun!  Other than our heating unit going out at the house last night Christmas was amazing!  I was able to spend Christmas with both my family, and my dear hubby's mom and dad's, we had a blast at both places.  I love being able to see my family that lives away from here every year we have so much fun laughing with each other, but this year just wasn't the same.  I guess holiday's have become a little bit difficult for me since my grandparents passed away.  Even though I have my wonderful hubby, his parents, and my cousins (who I am very close to) it still just isn't the same as having your parents there.  I guess as we look more and more at the possibility of having kids it gets worse.  My kids will never get to meet my mom or dad or even my grandparents that raised me.  They will have one set of grandparents and that's it.  I am blessed to have many wonderful people that love me, and even though they may not be blood they are most certainly family!

Now to complain a bit, I have had 4 people that are close to me pop up pregnant in the last week.  One of hubby's best friends is married to my cousin, and they felt the need to call at 11 f***king PM on MY BIRTHDAY to tell us that they are expecting, two weeks after the cousin's brother announced him and his lovely wife were pregnant.  Needless to say, after calling my best friend and crying my eyes out, I accepted just because I can't get pregnant right now does not mean the baby making machine everywhere is going to grind to a stop to make me feel better.  It took me many choice words and lots of tears to come to this conclusion!  So at Christmas breakfast the following conversation takes place...

family- Jessica did you hear blah blah and blah blah are expecting?
me- yep sure did..
family- so is there anything you want to announce?
me- nope...
family- you sure?
me- *death stare*

I was not a happy camper.

So on to a little bit better *TMI* news!  I started my period... this is the 4th one I have had all year.  My husband has been less than thrilled about this, but I explained it's either grumpy Jessica or no babies.

So even though 2012 has been a rough year, I know that in 2013 I can either continue to feel sorry for myself or take control and make some changes.   This includes both the way I have been thinking and the choices I have made physically.  So I plan to make the best of 2013 and have a rocking year!